In my previous blog “The Awakening” I talked about how my spiritual awakening started and how my whole life changed in couple of years. With each blog I’ll be taking you through a journey which you might be walking on currently without even realizing.
Awakening is your first stage which takes you on this incredible journey of self love & mastery in life. However as I stated in my previous blog, it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna destroy you into pieces and build on the best version of yourself. So if you decided to take on this journey, then I am rooting for you here. On that note today I am gonna discuss about the second stage and i.e. is “The dark night of the soul”.
As the name suggests this stage is quite tough and we often find ourselves in between lot of darkness and pain. It begins after a significant event happening in your life. It could be a loss of a loved one, a breakup of a marriage or a long term partnership, or a diagnosis of a life threatening disease, an accident anything that crumbles your life and push you forward towards the unknown. The effect of anything breaking off your life would be very disturbing and would feel like a betrayal from the Universe. Not only you’ll be questioning the Universe but also, everything surrounding you at the moment.
You would feel that everything you had till now was a myth. Anything not serving in your growth would be cut off automatically. Toxic behaviors of friends & family would rise up. You’ll be noticing that once the people who really mattered, didn’t care anymore. Toxicity would surface around everywhere. The job you felt so secure in would start feeling like a burden, it’s like there is a void that needs to be fulfilled. You would wanna run away from everything. You would wanna start off everything all over again. It feels deep and dark.
It’s your soul that’s ready for growth and to be awaken to it’s full potential. Unlike depression here you question your existence, existence in this 3D world. “Who am I?”, “Why am I here?”, “What is the purpose of this life that I am living”, “Why everything that mattered once, has stopped giving me the joy?”, “Am I getting mad?”, “Why am I so helpless?” these are the few questions that would rise up time to time. Not only mentally it’ll be physically exhausting too. Disturbed sleep patterns, low apatite, once your comfort food won’t provide you that comfort anymore.
Not feeling good enough psychically and mentally are common while going through the dark night of the soul. If you’re exhausted and questioning your existence, then my friend you’re on the right track. Some people describes the Dark night of the soul as a spiritual crises. aka a spiritual depression or existential crises. It’s often confused as clinical depression and with good reason as it mimics all the symptoms of depression. Ummm but hey my friend don’t worry unlike mental depression this is a depression of your soul. Its a beginning of everything you ever wanted, your desires, the beginning of the summer of your life.
In simple words, it feels like a caterpillar getting ready in the cocoon to be the butterfly. So, don’t worry if it feels lonely right now. I am here to guide you on this journey, to make it little easier for you. In my next blog I’ll be talking about, how to deal with the “Dark night of the soul”. Until then keep hanging there cuz you’re on a ride. A ride towards being the best version of yourself!